semester goals

This is deep but one of my biggest downfalls mentally, is being far too hard on myself. I find it very hard to recognise my own achievements, and seem to massively under estimate my talents. It’s very easy in this world to not feel good enough, when really you’re actually doing just fine. So stopping putting myself down and doubting myself is probably the biggest goal for this year.

I bloody hate the word, but the wanderlust is real my friends. Ever since my Peru trip in 2016 and last years interrailing, I’ve been really wanting to do another trip, but for longer and further away distance. I’d love to spend a month in Iceland in summer,hiring a four by four and cruise the open road, camping out in it and maybe the odd airbnb. New Zealand is my biggest must, a road trip around the islands is my dream- although I can genuinely see myself living there for an extended period of time. Sadly being only 18 I can’t hire a car so this year it is my goal to save for these pipe dreams.

I really want to take the time this year to think about my future, where I see myself in 5 years and all that crap. Why? Because I’m shit scared of the future and the only way I’ll ease that anxiety is if I figure out what I want to do and how to achieve it. I know I want to move abroad, which scares the poo out of me, but I guess if I start planning it now the whole thing might run more smoothly….?

I think I do have an identity that’s mine. But this world that is so documented on social media, it's often easy to fall into the trap of slightly mimicking what's popular. Now, I don’t think Im that guilty of trying to be something else. However, sometimes it can be SO easy to do what everyone else is doing. It's completely fine to be inspired and influenced by others, but you should no way loose yourself in it all. I want to really bring myself to the surface. I’ve never been one to care what others think of me (I mean i play ultimate frisbee thats a dead give away I'm a loser), but I need to invest less time in online me and more in real me.